It was my second year of college.
On campus, there was some sort of festival going on and people were handing out flyers. I was too for a show I was doing, when I came across a couple of young people also handing out flyers. Their flyers promised free pizza and a movie. I had just moved out of my parents’ place (commuter school…) and was paying for my own food for the first time, so a flyer for free pizza seemed like a very good flyer to have. I took a flyer from one of the pair, a young woman, and gave her a flyer for my show in return. I doubted she’d come to my show, but I planned to show up for the free pizza. I asked her what her event was about.
“It’s just a group of friends who get together for movies and pizza a couple times a month,” she said, and then quickly added, “sometimeswegotothesamechurchtoo.”
She called the next day and asked if I wanted to get lunch.
I was at my parents house when she called, just hanging out with the dog. I agreed to have lunch with her, even though that hadn’t been on the flyer and wasn’t free. I had lots of friends, so I wasn’t lonely. But I was hungry a lot and having a friend with regular access to free pizza was probably a decision making factor. (I was also highly attracted to drama back then….theatre student thing or something….) When I hung up the phone, the dog looked over at me and started growling. I hadn’t been making all kinds of noise, and he’d been his normally friendly, chill self just minutes before. You know….as I’m typing this story, I really must have been hungry if I still agreed to meet with the crazy lady anyway–even if she said she and her friends gotothesamechurch for fun and my parents’ Westie was not having it. If you can’t trust a Westie’s instinct, you should just give up and move to Mars.
I met with her. It was surprisingly unweird and uneventful. But the weird and eventful stuff came immediately after our lunch. I just didn’t feel right. For days afterward, I could not get enough sleep. Worse, I had the nastiest mentality I think I’ve ever had. I had piercingly negative thoughts about everyone who passed me on the street, rode next to me on the bus, sat next to me in class, or had the nerve to say hi to me in the halls. Strangers or friends–my mind and attitude was a toxic dump and my energy levels were sinking.
A couple of days later, I caught myself thinking outright hateful thoughts toward a stranger on the train who hadn’t caused me any problems whatsoever. It was so unnecessary and so unlike me that I knew something was wrong. I also still felt very tired. It felt like something was *on* me and it needed to go away. I was still a devout Catholic at the time and with a series of hard prayers and a spritz of Holy Water, I felt whatever “thing” had suctioned onto my mind and energy field disconnect. Then, I fell asleep. When I woke up, I felt better. I saw the girl once more on campus when she was out flyering for free pizza, but I veered as far away from her as I could. Something on that woman had latched onto me, and I wasn’t about to let it come back.
I’m older, I’ve met lots of even crazier people on my path, and I’ve been practicing Witchcraft formally for quite awhile now. I can see those things before they come up and get rid of them a hell of a lot faster than I did back then. I’ve also gone through periods of paranoia, or feeding my own frustrations or anger toward another person that those things have physically manifested and come back to me like a nasty boomerang. Not every nasty moment, bad day, or series of unfortunate events is the fault of an enemy out there snickering while shaking your hair in a jar. Not every weird person is going to leave “something weird” in your energy field. Sometimes, we are our own worst energetic enemies. But sometimes, it comes from elsewhere.
Learning psychic self-defense is one of the necessary tricks of the trade for anyone interested in working with energy. Frankly, I think it should be taught in public schools instead of Creationism. If you work with others, talk to others, interact with others (even if only on the major holidays…), then it is important to know how to shield, deflect, or protect yourself from periodic interference. It is also important to know when these things are all in your head and how they can be let go before you hurt yourself.
This is why…..I’m teaching a class on this on Friday, May 18th, at 7 p.m. in Simple Studios on West 29th Street, NYC. We do have limited enrollment, so please register ahead of time!
I hope everyone is still riding high on the Beltaine tides!!!